I have felt sick since I heard the news yesterday that the
WTC (world Triathlon Corporation) have banned Lance Armstrong from competing in
next Sunday’s Iron man France in Nice on June 24th. Due to the allegations that USADA
are bringing against Lance the WTC have said that this makes him ineligible to
compete in any of their races.
Whatever the validity
or not of any charges against Lance
concerning his past cycling career, what over shadow’s any of that issue is the
way in which all of this is being conducted. The timing apart from anything
else is appalling. This has been timed to cause as much trouble as possible for
Lance, his family and friends who were looking forward to seeing him compete. This
will cause upset to his fellow competitors and spectators of the sport, and
most importantly his foundation LIVESTRONG and their investment in his Iron man
journey with Team LIVESTRONG Iron man. Funds that may I stress where being
raised for the fight against Cancer. To
level all this at him one week before Nice, The timing is just nasty. I am
sorry but it is.
As someone who has been both a cycling fan and a Triathlon
fan it has gotten to the point now where you just want to scream. I cannot see
how any of this bears any relevance on anything anymore. People have decided,
they have made their decisions about all this, and also the past is the past and like
everything in history the further away we get from something the harder it gets
to judge, as we cannot possibly really understand the full circumstances around
those events and conditions from our standpoint in the present. What is truly shoddy about all of this is the
pointing of the finger at one cyclist.
Many of us know plenty about that era in cycling and if it was indeed a
culture of doping, well you cannot bring that to bear on one person’s doorstep,
least of all a cyclist. Everyone knows that if there is a culture of anything
going on in sport then the athlete is usually as much of a victim as anyone can
be, faced quite often with impossible choices.
Considering the era we are referring too it makes it even more dreadful
to pluck a few people out and hang them out to dry and try to pin on them the
blame for an entire period of time that was complex and opaque. This is exactly
what a witch hunt does. A with hunt tries to simplify the complex to get nice
and neat answers and so they will vilify a few people to get their boxes
ticked.
Life is not black and white and sometimes we cannot have the
answers and even more importantly sometimes we cannot ever know and we need to
be satisfied with that. Lance is being targeted because of his celebrity and
visibility it really is that simple. In February there was a collective sigh of
relief and most people I think felt that relief not because absolutely everyone
felt Lance was lily white but because they recognised that it didn’t matter. we
didn’t need to know any more about this and what was more important was Lance’s
tireless work for the cancer community in the present day, and his legacy in
that regard, and even more importantly the future potential of LIVESTRONG, his
foundation, still in its infancy but doing amazing things for the global cancer
community, many people saw that this was what needed to be preserved and
maintained above all else.
I visited Austin Texas in March and attended the LIVESTRONG
assembly and I toured their Headquarters and heard LIVESTRONG speak to us for
two days about their mission and their future goals all geared towards helping
the 28 million living with cancer around the world. I listened to both Doug
Ulman and Lance speak, and there was such an air of optimism about the future
for their organisation. It was truly lovely to witness. I have supported them
now for just over 3 years. I did find the organisation via Lance’s book but
quickly became incredibly impressed by LIVESTRONG, the cancer organisation and
all it had to offer the global cancer community.
LIVESTRONG and Lance are of course intertwined and he
brought to bear on the building of his foundation the same will power, fight
and intensity as we witnessed on the bike and we read about in how he fought
his own cancer battle. LIVESTRONG are all about people. They started with one
man’s cancer story and they are now all about millions of people’s cancer
story. Lance has always maintained that it is all about the story, the power of
a person’s cancer story to both release them and also to help release others,
whether from loneliness or from stigma. LIVESTRONG has been built from this one
guiding principle, the person and their story, they also let that guide their programs
and initiatives they either implement or get behind.
They want to strip lance of his jerseys maybe? But they
cannot strip him of attributes he possesses that have enabled him to fight off
a truly deadly cancer diagnosis and build a truly wonderful cancer foundation,
a truly unique foundation. Think about the wristband? As Doug Ulman said himself,
this wristband democratised philanthropy, for the first time ever for a dollar
anyone could participate in the awareness raising process. The wristband was
also there before social media, it actually did what social media campaigns do
now on line, raise mass awareness about a cause. LIVESTRONG have always been at
the forefront of new ways of raising awareness and fighting cancer. They didn’t
invent the concept of survivor ship but they have run with it in such a way that
it has brought it to the forefront of the cancer community consciousness in
such a way as it never was before. Nearly everything they support or implement
is based on this element.
I do want to mention Lance as a cyclist as well. I read a
really good blog post this morning by a girl and in it at the end she said when
all is said and done there was no one more bad ass on a bike than Lance and we
all loved watching him, all of us. We build up our sporting heroes and invest
in them so much and we do forget they are people just like the rest of us. But
whatever Lance did or didn’t do during the course of his cycling career no one
can take that away from him, it was intensely beautiful to watch him on a bike.
That absolute will power and determination of spirit stamped all over
everything he did out there on the road, that part was real, for sure it was
and he brought that in to everything he has built up ever since.
The bottom line in all of this is, we don’t need to know
anything more about what went on or didn’t during Lance’s cycling career, this
was a difficult period for the sport of cycling, but then one could argue every
decade has been a challenging one for the sport of cycling. Are we going to
blame him for what went on during the Tour De France in 1911? Hmmm quite.
What is truly cruel about all this is the timing when he had
just been given a breathing space after the federal prosecution was closed down
in February. Finally he could get on with helping to run his foundation, look
after his family and also getting back to his triathlon roots. Lance loves to compete, he is let’s
face it one of the most competitive sportsmen on the planet and he is the
ultimate athlete, to rob him of that outlet and also rob the rest of us from
the spectacle that was Lance racing Iron man and all the attendant fun and drama
inherent in that. Lance was bringing a lot of good in Ironman’s direction and
there were also a lot of us starting to get out there and raise funds for Team
LIVESTRONG Iron man so we could race in a team with Lance and also give back to LIVESTRONG
and the cancer fight at the same time.
I pulled from Iron man France last year after a really bad
injury I couldn’t shake, I then pulled again this March just passed from Iron
man France 2012 because of the same injury that was still playing up. What
changed? I went to the USA and the confidence and inspiration I got from being
out in that country, first from staying with my friend in LA and then my trip
to Austin with LIVESTRONG. I also stayed with my triathlon coach Claudia Spooner in Austin for
an extra week and it was then it began to grow in me to try and give it a go,
give it a go for Team LIVESTRONG even if I am not up to it. Liz Kreutz, Lance’s
long time photographer spoke to me at the LIVESTRONG assembly and said just do
it, don’t miss out on France and how amazing it will be to be out there with
all of us and LIVESTRONG, she said even just train enough to do the swim. She
made me realise that this was bigger than me. I was committed to my fund raising
goal and to Team LIVESTRONG and of course the absolute treat of getting to be
on the same race course as Lance Armstrong for a day.
So I came back to Ireland on April 7th wondering
can I? It has been so hard, the injury is clearing but not quite but there was
a miracle. I did start hitting the training goals, I started to love swim, bike
and run again and I started to get really excited about going to France with
Team LIVESTRONG Iron man to race and raise awareness about cancer. I have a fabulous coach in Claudia, and I got amazing
support from fellow LIVESTRONG leaders, even one of my LIVESTRONG leader
friends Shu Milne was coming to Nice to support me and cheer me on. I have had all throughout
this period of time as well so many doubts. I am so tired and I have a shoulder problem
now from swimming that I didn’t talk about this last week. I am finding it hard
to keep weight on as it has been such a dramatic build up over the last few
weeks to just see if I can do this.
As soon as I heard about this latest action against Lance
yesterday I felt physically sick and I knew right then and there I didn’t want
to go to Nice but at the same time I felt I should sleep on it and just see,
especially as I picked up a bit of a bug yesterday and so I was really not in
the right frame of mind to make decisions. I got a lovely message from Team LIVESTRONG
about the race but I just felt sick. I think it’s all been so emotional anyway
all of this for me. I have trained very hard in a very short period of time so
I could not miss out and be part of this and yes of course I desperately want Iron man,
but deep down inside I did know I was going there to not so much complete but
participate so that has been hard mentally on me as well, to have to prepare
for a race like that, knowing it’s not realistic to really expect to finish.
I have had a really difficult couple of years with injury
and other issues, recently I have been so lucky to be injury free enough to
work, and I am also working again for a really great person Tina Murphy, I love
her company “Run with Tina”, and her ethos around fitness. I had gotten back to
loving my Triathlon training too, but this has knocked me out for the count it
really has. I feel like I spent as a
cycling fan two years listening to poisonous stuff then there is a break and
now it’s leaking all over triathlon stuff as well. I am also really disappointed
in the WTC, I can’t help it. I know they are saying it’s their rules but I can’t
help it I feel disillusioned and I just have lost faith right now.
I am thinking about taking a huge step back from Triathlon
and just swimming, biking and running this year for the love of it and then
reassessing Iron man next year. To be honest I feel right now like I don’t want to race until I hear
an apology to Lance and a lift on that ban so he can get back to doing what he
loves best. But we will see.
I have really important things in my life with my fitness
career and also I wrote my part of a press release today for the joint program as
a LIVESTRONG leader I am doing with bray cancer support centre for cancer
survivors. This is what counts, my work for LIVESTRONG and this is what I said
and it helped me a lot today.
"I am excited to be involved in this fantastic program. Ever
since I first had a meeting with Bray cancer centre I was struck by the similarity in
their outlook and focus with the Lance Armstrong Foundation, and their shared
priorities in both the initiatives and programs they implement themselves and
support.
Bray Cancer Centre and LIVESTRONG both put survivor ship at the top
of their agenda’s and a program such as this one reflects that priority, based
as it is upon the cancer survivors needs and the desire to enhance their
quality of life.
Due to the inspiration and education I have received from LIVESTRONG
as one of their volunteer leaders I decided to begin the process of qualifying
myself to be trained in prescribing physical activity to cancer survivors. This
area is now understood to be a crucial component of survivor ship and cancer
survivors are encouraged to participate in exercise to help in their on-going
recovery. Through my LIVESTRONG connections I have also built up knowledge
about nutrition principles that are beneficial for cancer survivors to be
educated about.
I feel honoured to be part of this program with bray cancer
support. For me this will be the first time I will be using my skills as a
cancer survivor physical trainer and I thank bray cancer and LIVESTRONG who
have both made this development possible!"
This is what counts for all of us involved in the cancer
community, what helps people affected by cancer? And to put it simply LIVESTRONG
help people affected by cancer, right now in the present in the now and their
potential to do that in the future can only grow a thousand fold. Lance’s
legacy is this work, that’s what counts now and the rest of it, the past it
needs to be left alone.
I am not sure what I will do about France but I am so happy I hit my
fund raising goal for the team and I still have some dollars from training miles
I put in, still to add to the fund. It
was an article in the Iron man magazine, " Lava" that inspired me to donate a dollar per mile
for my own training to LIVESTRONG. Yes Lance brought a lot in to the sport of
Iron man in a short period of time, he really did. I just hope for him because he
love’s Triathlon and for the good of the sport he will be back again one day.
In the meantime I wish Lance and his family and friends all the very best
through this difficult time.
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